1/7/2012 - 70.8kg

DAY 2 - 73.2kg

Calories in: 1550
Calories out: 700 

Food

- cornflakes and green tea (200 cal)
- coffee (100 cal)
- tomato & capsicum salsa tuna on 1 slice bread and 100mL flavoured mineral water (250 cal)
- chocolate cake (400 cal)
- fish, rice and vegetables (300 cal)
- ice cream (300 cal)

Exercise

Run, 9km, 45min (700 cal)

I need this again. Fuck. I look at myself in the mirror and just see this thing. She’s not pretty or elegant or anything. I got home and went to the bathroom and tried so hard to make myself throw up, but then I realised that I didn’t want to do that. I don’t want to be bulimic. I hate that I exercise until I feel sick but see no results. I hate that I try to eat less but still nothing happens. And so I need this again. To keep myself in check.

I hate myself.

DAY ONE - 71.7kg

Went for a 30 minute exercise - stairs, sit ups, squats, planks - but it wasn’t as intense because I did a 5 km yesterday and I’m trying to pace myself a little more. I want to do the city to bay course soon but between study and exercise I practically have no life at the moment which can’t be good for me. It will definitely be a long run tomorrow with the stairs and strength stuff.

I lapsed in eating today. I was going so well with the house to myself and eating well but when everyone is home I just seem to eat so much more. It is terrible. And mum made me go out for chinese with them which didn’t fucking help.

Shit.